Separation anxiety

Actually this post isn't about you having separation anxiety Wyatt, it's about me having it because your Dad and I are separating. Since I can speak freely here and now, I can tell you in summary, it's because your father is a pathological liar. To be fair it's more than that of course, perhaps I didn't love him enough or I would deal with his inability to be honest. The thing is, since I come from such a disjointed family, most of which have let me down terribly, I am hurt more than most would be by his actions. It's the curse of a small family, you count on each individual member even more because it's all you have. Or had.
My biggest concern is time away from you Wyatt. Although I like a break now and then, spending days and days apart and weekends regularly will be the single most painful thing I have ever done in my life. Considering all the pain I have managed to pack into my 38 years, that is quite a statement. But enough of the pity party I sense I am throwing here.
Here's the good news, I will be a very happy person away from your Dad. Your Dad may be able to find someone he can be honest with and then he will be a very happy person as well. You may find in your life that you end up with 4 parents if you ever have step parents, this can be a fabulous thing, the more people you have to protect you and love you in life, the easier your path will be.
I honestly never wanted this for you in life, who does? I would have married your Dad even though I don't think I felt 100% like I should. I would have been faithful and trustworthy. I would have worked, organized and planned enough for us to have a stable and happy life. Unfortunately though, it takes trust on my part to even think about these things. And it's gone. So when you're older and you ask yourself this question: Did they really try to make it work? Know that this is the answer, without mutual trust absolutely nothing works. I tried to make it work the year following the first huge lie, but, when I learned the second huge lie a year later, I knew I tried to make it work, but, had failed.
Most of all I want you to know that I am so sorry, so terribly sorry. I know we won't be sad, but, we also won't be a family anymore and there is reason to be sorry for that.